Lately, at the checkout counter or in the bank, I’m overhearing people who are stressed because their wallets are empty and the bills are overdue. It takes me back to the times when, as a kid, I had to watch every penny I spent.
When I was sixteen, I was hired as a supermarket cashier, which, in the era before scanners, was a job that required a few days of training at the company’s main warehouse. On the day of the first training session, I hadn’t expected to be invited to join my new coworkers for lunch, and I was too embarrassed to say anything, so I spent my bus fare on a bowl of soup. At the end of the day, in order to get home I had to walk ten miles through the worst parts of the inner city in the dark.
Three years later, I was still using public transportation in a city crowded with motorists, but I had a better job at a department store—a retailer now called Macy’s. One of our benefits as employees, in that bygone era, was a cafeteria where we were fed so cheaply that we must have been paying less than the wholesale cost of the food. One day at lunchtime, I selected my yogurt, slid my tray to the checkout, and came up a nickel short. The cashier reassured me that I could bring her a nickel the next day. I was so mortified that I couldn’t hold back the tears. To this day, I can recall that miserable feeling, that flush of shame.
Nowadays, truthfully, I have more than I need. I call myself stressed at times, but I have no right to complain. Thirty-odd years ago, the teenage me would have been envious. I wish I could go back and help her out. And I wish I could give that compassionate cashier a great big hug.